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The loneliness

Wo shayad train me hai, or usne abhi tak mera number unblock nhi kia whatsapp se, or na hi call kia. Karegi bhi q, uske pas sab kuch hai, use ab meri kya zarurat. Shayad vo bhul gai ki mai hi tha uske sath jab uske pas koi nhi tha. Yhi bat jab mai use bolta hu to muje bolti hai ki uske pas time nahi. Time hota nahi hai nikalna padta hai. Vese bhi uski koi galti nhi, mai hi usse bhoot zada pyar karta tha, or mai hi uske paas jana chahta tha. Ab agar vo door jati hai to shayad muje uske peche nhi padna chaie. Man to karta hai ki bas sab bhul jau, vese bhi vo muje ab pyar nhi karti, pta nhi q vo 2 din mere sath thi. Uska phone hamesha busy hota hai, pas uske pas 2 min ka time nhi ki mere se bat karle. Vese b use shayad mai pakata hu. Use ab meri baate booring lagti hai. Muje bas baat karne ke lie chaie koi, khair mai yha kar sakta hu, vese koi sunne wala nhi meri bate par acha lagta hai, aesa lagta hai ki mai sach me kisi se bat kar rha hu. Bola to tha I am on a lonely spaceship. Khair m…

The jail

Khair ye hafta acha tha, starting to achi thi  but age ka nhi pta. Bcoz vo busy ho jaegi apne new friends or us job me. Everything is repeating, 4 sal pehle uska koi dost nhi tha, or vo din bhar mujhse baat karti thi, ab mera nhi hai, par vo shayad 2 min b na nikale mere lie. Mai force nhi karunga use ki mujhse baat kare, if i am something to her, then she will spare some time for me. Vaise b maine promise kia hai ki mai use pareshaan nhi karunga and I dont want to ruin this chance.
Papa ko pasand nhi mai govt job karu, well defence wali pasand nahi, bcoz he think that wha age badhne ki chance kam hai. Or ek bar ghus gya to 6-7 sal to gae. Private job me improvement ke zada chances hai. Khair muje nhi lagta ki mera niklega bhi ye exam bcoz bhoot sara hai padhne ka, and agar nikal bhi gya fir bhi ssb nikalna mushkil hai, or mere se ek bhi pull up nhi ho rha, or unko 10 chaie. But I am trying everything, but problem ye h ki agar mera selection ho jata h or usne shadi k lie mana kar dia…