I don't know What I am doing



Muje nhi pta ki mai kya kar rha hu. Jab tak vo sath thi tab tak life me kuch aim tha, ab bina aim ke bas TV series dekhta rehta hu. Bhoot saare courses bhi drop kar die to subh time pe uthta bhi nhi, breakfast bhi miss kar deta hu or class bhi. Sab shi chal rha tha, muje laga ki ye semester bas nikal hi gya, lekin last me bakchodi ho hi gai. Jiska dar na tha vo ho hi gya. Or vo madam ji ye dikhnae ki kosish karti rhi ki vo kitni mahan hai apne gharwalo ke samne londe ko shadi ke lie mana karke. 2 rishte aae the, pehle ladke ne ise reject kar dia, dusre ko isne, or mai ye sochta rha ki mere lie kia tha. Matlabi sali. BC sare matlabi hai is duniya me. If anyone in this world who gonna support you is your parents, baki sare ya to tumhara fayda uthaenge ya maze lenge. Don't trust anyone if you are not in relation with them. muje laga ki 7 sal ho gae, ab ghanta chor paegi muje. Agar tum logo ko purane msg padhae to sochoge ki ya to vo msg maine khudko kie hai, ya kisi bhoot ne. Agar usne kie hote to vo kabhi chorke nhi jati. Kya fark padta hai, bas acha hai ki last me ake dhoka dia usne, shuru me dia hota to ye 5 sal ki degree ko 7-8 sal lag jate. Man kar rha hai use barbaad kar du, but uspe daya aa jati hai, bcoz usne sach me mere lie bhoot kuch saha hai. Use udna hai to ja.. udd. lekin jis din zameen pe aegi to us din shayad tera sath dene wala koi na ho, mai bhi nahi. Jo bhi hai, uski life hai, jisko jake chatna ho jake chaate. muje kya, lekin uski baate or uska abhi ka behavior, yakeen nhi hota ki ye vhi hai jisne muje msg kie the, mujhse baate ki thi, or mujhse video call kie the. Or vo dheme dheme muskurana muje dekh ke, shayad vo sab sapna ho, lekin mere pas abhi bhi videos hai, to vo sapna to nhi ho sakta. shayad jo abhi ho rha hai mere sath, vo sapna ho.