I am going home

Aj ghar ja ha hu, or usne himmat bhi nhi ki call karne ki. Bhana mar rhi thi ki college ka kam kar rhi thi. 6 bje se free thi, ek baar bhi call karne ka nhi socha. 6 bje kisi restaurant me khana khane gai, fir 8 bje movie dekhne gai. 10 bje whatsapp pe msg kia,vo bhi tab jab maine 10 bar call kia. Number to block kar dia, boli WhatsApp pe bhi block kar rhi hu. Abe uski okad kya hai. Pta nhi khudko kya samajhti hai. Mai bc gaand marake uske sath tha, ab jab uske pas sab hai to satwe asman me ud rhi hai. Aegi wapas kabhi zameen pe,tab use pta chalega ki usne kya khoya. Or vese bhi meri bhi koi self respect hai kuch, bhoot chaat li uski, or vese bhi duniya me bhoot sari ladkia hai, or baki uski trah matlabi to nhi hongi. Bas gussa aa rha hai khudpe, kash maine pehle hi baat na ki hoti usse 5 sal pehle. To shayad ab uski itni yad nhi ati. Gao jaa rha hu, 15 din, to shayad sab bhul jau. Generally jab mai gao se wapas delhi ata hu tab jhagda hota hai, lekin ab to jate time kar lia. Man kar rha hai ki use gaaliya du. Par uski life hai, uska man jo b kare, chutiya to mai tha jo apna katwa rha tha itne dino se. Di thi maine galiya use 11 me. Muje boli ki maine uski key ring, fee ke paise, uska medal churaya tha school ke time. Maine mana kia fir bhi bolti rhi baar baar, bas fir kya, khanak gya mera dimag or maine use galiya send kar di, or uske bhai ne padhke uski mummy ko bta di. Muje pta hai maine galat kia tha, vese bhi har kisi ki life me bhoot saari problems hoti hai, lekin mai un me se 1 problem nhi banna chahta tha. Usne bhoot sath dia mera, itna kuch hone ke baad bhi, par ab pta nhi kya ho gya use. Or mai chah ke bhi kuch nhi kar sakta. Maine socha tha ki usko uske bdday pe ring pehnaunga. Wha Bangalore to jake nhi ho paega,par shayad yha video call se. Par muje lagta hai ki aesa kuch nhi hone wala ab. Par ab bhoot zada ho gya, she don't respect me, i know that. Islie shayad yhi sahi tha ki use akela chor du. Jab pta chalega ki mere jaisa koi use pyar nhi karega tab use apni galti ka ehsas hoga. Pta hai jab vo ghar ja rhi thi to mai har 10 min me msg karta tha. Use jokes bejta tha taki vo train me boor na ho. Or yha to madam ji ne puchne ki himmat nhi ki ki mai train me beth gya ke nhi. Shayad use chorne ka decision sahi hai mera. Vese bhi sath rehke bhi khudhi ko takleef de rha tha. Kya hoga zada se zada, 1-2 mahina yad aegi. Ro lunga rat me, 2-4 asuo se kuch nhi bigdega. Par jis trah vo behave karti hai, isse asan to mar jana lagta hai. Khud marne se acha hai maine apne pyar karne ki ichaa hi maar di. Shaayad iske bad kisi oor ko pyar na kar pau. Par kisi ko pyar nhi chaie, sabko paisa chaie. Jao, paise kamao or khush rho. I am happy with my family, jisme ab vo nhi aati.