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Uske pas time hi nhi mere msg padhne ka. Shayad use yad hi nhi ati meri, agar hoti to apna msg box open karke dekh leti kam se kam ki maine msg kia hai. Shayad usne mera subh wala msg bhi nhi padha ho. Mai use msg karke zabardasti call karne ko nhi bolna chahta tha, q ki vo fir bolegi ki mai firse pehle ki trah kar rha hu. But maine use msg kia or kha ki call karne ko. Msg to vo padhti hi nhi, islie muje whatsapp pe msg karna pada. Vo office se jane ke bad pta nhi kisse bat karti hai, shayad hoga vo deefuck. Khair mere gussa karne se kya hoga. Or na hi mai usse puch sakta hu,bcoz fir vo gussa ho jaegi, bolegi q janna hai, tu muje control karna chahta hai. Muje to aesa lagta hai ki muje usne bandh ke rakha hai. Jab maine use btaya ki company ka reply aya hai, mai age initiate karu kya bat, uska reply tha ha kar de. No expression, nothing, jaise use koi matlab hi nhi mujhse, ha karna hai kar de, nhi karna mat kar, bhaad me ja, muje koi fark nhi padta, shayad aese sochti ho vo. Kabhi kabhi to man karta hai ki use call ya msg kuh b na karu,dekhta hu ki vo khudse kab karegi. Pta hai vo kabhi nhi karegi, or puchne pe reason degi ki muje laga tu busy hai. Shayad use chor dena hi sahi hai, bcoz uske pas job hai, or kya chaie kisi ko apni life me. Uske pas sab hai to q yad karegi muje, pta nhi log kaise bhool jate hai unko jinhone unka sath dia jab vo akele the, same as god, jab zarurat hoti tab yad ate nhi to mahine bhar yad nhi ate. Muje kabhi kabhi lagta hai ki mai uski life me zabardasti apni jagah banane ki kosish kar rha hu. Kash koi gajini ki trah mere sar pe bhi danda mar de or mai use bhul jau. Man karta hai ki apna gala daba du, q ki vese b sas lene ka man nhi karta, ya fir diwar pe apna sar patak patak ke memory erase kar du. Its unbearable. Pichle 6 mhine to depression me tha, pta hai agar vo bat karti hoti to shayad mai sari classes jata or muje is semester rukna bhi nhi padta q ki mere marks kam kar die the less attendance ki wajah se. Or vo ye bolegi ki meri kya galti tu hi class nhi gya. Jabki vo is sab se guzar chuki hai, fir bhi aese behave karti hai jaise uske sath kabhi kich nhi hua. Vo bas muje samajhne ki kosish hi nhi karna chahti. Mai jitna bhi usske pas jane ki kosish karta hu, vo mujhse door bhagne ki kosish karti hai. 19 ko vo deefuck dubara aa rha hai, bc ki shadi hone wali hai fir bhi yhi aega marwane. Fir jaenge dono, ghumne, ice cream khane, movie dekhne. Uske pas is sabke lie time hai, bas mere se bat karne ka nhi. Mere se baat karne pe use problem, mai kisi or ladki se bat karu to use problem, lekin vo kuch bhi kare, ladke ke sath pora Bangalore ghume bike pe, tab kuch nhi. Pta hai mai kya kar sakta hu. Koooooch nhi. Pta hai kaisa lagta hai, jaise kisi ne muje bandh rakha hai or mere samne meri wife ka rape kar rha hai,or mai chah ke bhi kuch nhi kar sakta.